Wednesday, May 24, 2017

+The green carpet.

So yesterday...we came back home from work like usual.
After a long day at work...we wanted to enter our home peacefully and happily.
But unfortunately that day, we have greeted by the stench of a strong cat shit and make us bleeding inside.
Awww, snap! The green carpet!

Tot sleepover at our home last night and I forgot to roll up our green carpet that morning before leaving to work.
Jane was pooping again at the green carpet!
That green carpet is Jane's favorite place to poop!
I don't know why Jane likes so hella much with that green carpet.
Maybe it looks like a grass field.
We cannot leave a house with that green carpet on the floor.
We think that we don't need that green carpet anymore.
So...bye bye green carpet.

Jane and her green carpet. Duh!

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

+Are you okay if..

Someone have been asking me that question.
Little that the person knows, that question was like a hard stone to me.
And I rushed myself to text Aiman with just simple text like...
Sayang, buat apa tuu..? 
I need Aiman to calm me down if I have faced that kind of situation.
Usually, it works.
But right until now...I can't unfeel the feeling after the question hit me.

Monday, May 22, 2017

+Eight months.

I meant, everything does not matter anymore when your significant others always there for you in whatever situations and whenever you need them.

32 weeks of pregnancy.
Braxton hicks already become my daily morning and night routine.
My belly boldly shows off herself and she was like squealing to all people around and says...
hey, look at me...I am 8 months of pregnant.
And people around me be more extra care and love me.
I even get help down from the stairs.
Bestnya jadi orang mengandung ni..

Aiman and I, we are so nervous actually.
The time is around the corner.
We hope that everything is going well.
Ya Allah.
Ease everything ya Allah.

Thursday, May 18, 2017


Everything doesn't make sense anymore when your life is complete.
I am so happy now and so tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow.
Allah is the best planner after all.

Good things absolutely take time.

Monday, May 15, 2017

+A Question.

So yesterday I've met my Panda, Wani.
And Wani was asking me why lately my blog like so sedih?
Is it?
Is it too obvious?

Firstly, I just write what I feel at the moment in here without thinking about who will be going to read it.
Fact, it just Wani pun yang selalu baca.
Secondly, if I feel uneasy or whatsoever and post it here, surely it is not about my marriage.
Please don't think that way to whom that may read my blog.
Aiman and I are all okay InshaaAllah and Alhamdulillah.
Fact, if I got problem pun with my husband, I'm not going to spread it out here.
I'm not that crazy yet.

So..please don't make me upset and angry.
You wouldn't like me when I'm upset or angry.
Or you will see in here that I probably write about you.

Except for my loved ones.
You are always be forgiven.
Because love makes me that way.

Thursday, May 11, 2017


To love someone is nothing, 
to be loved by someone is something, 
but to be loved by the one you love is everything.

Monday, May 08, 2017


It's 29 weeks already with my baby in my womb.
I become nervous day by day.
There's nothing I can say than thanks a lot to Aiman for helping me going through the extraness days.

My last weekend is not like my usual weekend.
There's something intrudes my mind and somehow..I cried in my prayer.
I hope it will not affect my baby and hopefully, everything is all okay.

Friday, May 05, 2017


Some people enjoy making other people cry.

Wednesday, May 03, 2017

+Sleep outside.

Almost every day now since Jane peed on our bed, she has to sleep outside.
She wasn't allowed now to sleep with us.
She even cannot hang out in our room like she used to do.
So she will lay in front of our bedroom's door making cute faces just in case it would change our mind.
So cute.
My heart is so broken whenever I open the door and look at her face.
Sorry to my dear Jane.
But for now, she needs to stay outside.
Sad truth, besides the pee accident, my health were not really good now to tag with her.
Sob sob.
I always thinking what if she knows that I will let Tot take care of her during my confinement....

But looking at her, I think that she really needs a new friend.
How monotonous her life is to stay alone for years with me.
I hope that she can get along with Bong and the rest of the gang then.
And also....I hope that Aiman and Moms allow me to pet Jane back after I have finished my confinement day.

Friday, April 28, 2017


There is a coldhearted person I've met irl.
Even until now, this person keeps bugging my life with unnecessary actions.
I feel like I want to scream out loud at this person's face and says...
Stop bugging my life.
How jahat you can be?
Did you think other people's feeling before you doing all that?

Hmm. I hate this kind of feeling.
I don't want to hate anybody but seems like I have to hate this person.
Like really hate you know.
All these negative vibes will affect my baby's growth.

Why laaa...

+Hari ini dalam sejarah.

Awal pagi lagi Jane dah buat hal.
These few days Jane was in the mating mood.
So she will keep on meowing to express her feeling and stop only when she feels tired, but then she will continue to meowing as loud as she can and wake our neighbours up for Fajr.
But this morning she becomes extra.
She peed on our bed!
Wadehel Jane????
It was 5 am and not even azan yet but I have to clean the mess.
I locked her at the kitchen balcony, of course with her meals.
Kesian, but I have to.
At least she got the fresh air and bila dia termenung kat balcony tu dia boleh mengenang apa yang dia buat pagi tadi tu is absolutely wrong.
Hahaha. Delusional Umi Sue.

Alahai Jane Jane.

Thursday, April 27, 2017


28 weeks and we just discovered our baby's gender.
Awh I am so happy and totally can't wait for the pop day.
Terharu..keluaq ayaq mata everytime we screening the baby.
Like I still can't believe that there is a baby in my belly.
I could see and feel the heartbeats, how it kicking my belly and all that.
May Allah bless you, baby.
I'm waiting for you.

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

+My fault.

I remember words.
Especially when it comes from someone important/special to me.
I have once suffocated by words said that were never meant.
I found that it is hard to breathe when I keep on remember that words.
Like bear a grudge. Pretty petty. Huhu.
It's no one fault. It is my fault.
How I wish I can be as simple as everyone else.
There are too many mistakes I did in my life.
Life must go on, that's the fact.
Ya, I need to learn to forgive my own self just so I can breathe happily.

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

+Noisy Jane.

Jane is such adorable cat.
She talks a lot.
If she's hungry and then she will meow.
If she's happy then she will meow too.
If she wants to wake us up then she will meow meow meow right in front of our face non-stop until we get up.
I was wondering what is she doing when we were not at home.
Is she just silent or keep on talking but to the wall?
How cute she is.
Everyday rindu Makcik Potpet Jane.

Monday, April 17, 2017

+Netflix and chill.'s Hannah, Hannah Baker.

That dialog haunted and keep replaying in my mind for the past few weeks.
13 Reasons Why series is actually had devastated me.
I feel so disturbed after watching it.
I couldn't even get a gut to finish the next 2 episodes.
Like hey, Netflix I got no chill.

It is easier for me to watch Goblin.
Even all the menangis parts that I've also menangis.
Goblin is a drama that resonates with me.
Gotta watch Goblin for the thousand times again to reignite my brain from that h*cking 13 Reasons Why.

Menyesal pulak tengok.

Updated: just finished wacthing 13 episodes. Poor Hannah. What a cruel life and we gotta be strong day by day.

Friday, April 14, 2017

+Excuse me.

Being pregnant is awesome.
People will automatically care about you like so much.
It follows by constant questions about your pregnancy progress plus few tips they have been experienced before, yada yada.
Thank you, but...
I feel a little awkward when it comes from men.
Unless you are my best-guy-friends.

Need to think few excuses after this to avoid them from asking.

Thursday, April 13, 2017

+Write again.

How I miss my so called journal diary.
Feeling to write everything again here after took a long break.
So..What is up to me right now?

Yeah. I am at my 26 weeks of pregnancy now.
Which I am so thankful for the best gifted I ever had from none other than Allah SWT.
I just can't wait to experience myself being a Mom.
I still figure it out how/what my baby needs to call me.
Is it Mom, Mim, Mommy?
I have no idea yet.
And Aiman also. He looks calmer than me.
I am more excited than himself.
How about his/her name?
Totally got no idea.
But for now, I have started make a few preparation for that day.
You know. The day. (read: takutnya).

May Allah ease everything and may I can go through the rest of the pregnancy weeks without any unwanted things happen.
Inshaa Allah. Amin.