Thursday, February 15, 2018

+Deal With Anger Management.

I realize that lately, I can easily get angry.
Everything can make me feel irritated.
The degree of irritation can be somehow from mild irritation to intense fury and outrage.
Like...I can easily be stress if I get to wake up late in the morning.
And I further will be stressing other people by making a numb and angry face and also by not uttering a single word to them.

What a bad version of myself.
Is it maybe because of I'm about to reach 30's?

Knowing that matter, I need to deal with my anger management.
I read a lot of stuff about that and did some tips on how to manage my anger.
Hopefully, I can manage to calm myself down in every situation and not make people around me gets hurt by my bad behavior.

Tuesday, February 06, 2018

+Fath's 1st day I.

So yesterday is Fath's first day of preschool.
Being a good boy, he's not cranky at all.
And that makes me proud of him.
The teachers also being so cooperative by updating me from time to time about Fath.

May Allah keeps my son safe.
Amin ya Rabbalalamin.

My Fath.

Thursday, January 18, 2018

+6 Months' Fath.

So hi hello there.
Say hello to this squishy little Fath.

Big boy now and how time flies gais.
From the moment I've been waiting for him and now he's turning 6 months old.
Being so busy right now preparing his everyday meals.

Monday, January 01, 2018

+Happy New Year.

Assalamualaikum and happy new year everyone.
May this year bring us more luck and joyfulness.

Monday, November 13, 2017

+Toothless Fath.

Citot said Fath is really looked like Dustin Toothless from the Stranger Things.
Awhh...Fath does look like him.

Now I'm missing my Toothless even more.

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

+3 Months Fath.

Fath is already 3 months.
Rindunyaaaaa towards him is every second.
No lie.

He now loves to mumble especially when he felt sleepy.
He also loves to suck his fingers and sometimes his whole hand is in his mouth.
He will cry when he noticed nobody was around him.
This feeling makes me want to run to my Mom and hug her tightly.

Looking at the clock in my room.
Why 5pm is so lambat?

Thursday, October 19, 2017


I'm back here at my desk.
After a long confinement break.
Missing Fath already and its only 1030 am.

So the good news today is I got a new boss.
New boss means a new password, new family members, new personal details and everything about her needs to remember.
Gotta change working style also.
Like finally I got a new boss after 8 years.

Sunday, September 10, 2017


Still can't believe that I'm holding a baby right now.
And this baby is mine.
Fascinated by his is something beyond my thought.

I am so happy you were here with me Fath.
You are my strength and the reason to live my life to the fullest now.
Thank you for being here.
You are the greatest gift I ever had in my life.
Lets start our journey together.

Love you,

Monday, July 31, 2017

+End of July.

Miracles do happen.
Thank you Allah for lend me the best gift in the world.

Assalamualaikum and welcome home Baby Fath.

Friday, July 14, 2017

+Fourteenth July.

Counting days.
Counting 1-2-3 days.
Counting days.

Thursday, July 13, 2017

+Thirteenth July.

Your hardest times often lead to the greatest moments of your life.
Keep the faith.
It will all be worth it in the end.
- Omar Rehman.

Monday, July 10, 2017

+Tenth July.

Not everyone will value you.
But there are a few who will stand by you no matter what.
They're the ones praying for you without you knowing.
- Mufti Menk.

Friday, July 07, 2017

+Seventh July.

I am grateful for every trial that pushed me closer to Allah.

Wednesday, July 05, 2017

+Fifth July.

In our lives,
we fight too many battles that don’t matter.
Remember, they are distractions.
Don't waste time.
It's not worth your while.
- Mufti Menk

Tuesday, July 04, 2017

+Fourth July.

I want to stay calm and collected.

Sunday, July 02, 2017

+Second July.

Be patient with yourself.
Be kind to yourself.
We've all been hurt & had mean things done to us.
But we pick ourselves up & keep going.
- Mufti Menk.

Saturday, July 01, 2017


So its already July.
To be honest, every year in July I wanted to feel new again.
Like a new year but it starts in July.
Many things to be expected during July this year.
So for this year,
All I want is nothing but happiness and good health for all my loved ones.
Thank you Allah for everything and forgive me for all my shortcomings.

Thursday, June 29, 2017

+Eid Mubarak.

Happy eid mubarak to all of you.
May this eid bring us happiness and countless blessings.
Have a good one everybody.

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

+Antara Baby dan Jane.

So today is the day where I have to send Jane to Tot's home.
Mixed feeling.
Jane has been my loyal companion for almost 5 years.
She witnessed all the bad and good things happen in our home.
She has calmed me down when I am not in a good mood and also when I cried.
But today, she will be going to leave me.
(actually I'm the one who let go of her T_T *playing victim*)

Umi Sue minta maaf na Jane.
Umi Sue datang jumpa Jane selalu nanti na.
Nanti adik da besar kita duduk sama-sama lagi na.
Sob sob sob......

Saturday, June 10, 2017

+Bidadari Syurga.

14 Ramadhan 1438H.
Hari Jumaat.
Penghulu hari dan bulan yang mulia.
Siapa yang tak mahu pengakhiran hidup yang sangat indah.
Seorang Shea telah meninggalkan dunia ni pada hari yang sangat ditunggu-tunggunya.
Tak sempat sampai ke hospital untuk ziarah Arwah Shea hari tu,
Tak sangka hanya dapat ziarah jenazahnya yang terbaring tenang menghadap kiblat diiringi keluarga dan insan-insan yang menyayangi beliau.
Semua orang sayangkan Mama.
If you know Mama..everybody prays for you.
Everybody talks about you.
Even though they were not knowing you personally.
Mama tenanglah di sana na.
Semua orang cemburu pada Mama kerana Mama pergi pada hari dan waktu yang semua orang nak.
Umi doakan Mama ditempatkan dikalangan orang-orang yang beriman.
Mama akan selalu dirindui.
Umi will read your blog all over again and will continue scrolling you Instagram.
Selamat jalan Mama.

Al-Fatihah Farah Syahirah binti Rasol.