Wednesday, June 21, 2017

+Antara Baby dan Jane.

So today is the day where I have to send Jane to Tot's house.
Mixed feeling.
Jane has been my loyal companion for almost 5 years.
She witnessed all the bad and good things happen in our house.
She has calmed me down when I am not in a good mood and also when I cried.
But today, she will be going to leave me.
(actually I'm the one who let go of her T_T *playing victim*)

Umi Sue minta maaf na Jane.
Umi Sue datang jumpa Jane selalu nanti na.
Nanti adik da besar kita duduk sama-sama lagi na.
Sob sob sob......

Saturday, June 10, 2017

+Bidadari Syurga.

14 Ramadhan 1438H.
Hari Jumaat.
Penghulu hari dan bulan yang mulia.
Siapa yang tak mahu pengakhiran hidup yang sangat indah.
Seorang Shea telah meninggalkan dunia ni pada hari yang sangat ditunggu-tunggunya.
Tak sempat sampai ke hospital untuk ziarah Arwah Shea hari tu,
Tak sangka hanya dapat ziarah jenazahnya yang terbaring tenang menghadap kiblat diiringi keluarga dan insan-insan yang menyayangi beliau.
Semua orang sayangkan Mama.
If you know Mama..everybody prays for you.
Everybody talks about you.
Even though they were not knowing you personally.
Mama tenanglah di sana na.
Semua orang cemburu pada Mama kerana Mama pergi pada hari dan waktu yang semua orang nak.
Umi doakan Mama ditempatkan dikalangan orang-orang yang beriman.
Mama akan selalu dirindui.
Umi will read your blog all over again and will continue scrolling you Instagram.
Selamat jalan Mama.

Al-Fatihah Farah Syahirah binti Rasol.

Thursday, June 08, 2017

+Pray for Shea.

Dengan doa semoga Shea diringankan musibah kesakitan yang menimpa.
Semoga Shea kuat dan tabah menjalani dugaan ini.
Stay strong Mama.
I love you and so the rest.

Friends who read this please pray for Shea.
May Allah SWT ease her cancer and smiles as always back.

Wednesday, June 07, 2017

+Stray cat and dog.

So I received the news, somewhere in Singapore selling dog and cat meat satay.
Seriously, dog and cat meat satay?
You satay them?
This is so heartbroken.
What is on their mind?
I even cannot see the stray cat and dog on the street.
So kesian..
But they just simply make them as satay?
So cruel and inhuman.
Lembu tu besaq kot tak cukup2 ka?

Going back home later and will hug Jane as tight as I can.

Tuesday, June 06, 2017

+June 06.

Happy birthday to the most beautiful amazing girl I have ever known.
Who have a beautiful heart, beautiful spirit, beautiful mind, beautiful soul.
The person that I love with all my heart.
Happy birthday my dear Fateha.
May Allah bless you and fill your life with endless happy moments, countless wonderful surprises and infinite success.
I wishing you all the beautiful things in life.
Keep traveling the world with your loved one!

Monday, June 05, 2017

+Baby kickin.

Ignore my last blog post.
It shouldn't be there actually.
Overthinking might kills my happiness and peaceful mind.
And I should not be worried or think about what other people do in theirs life.
In this holy month, I should be more positive and productive to be nearer to Allah SWT.

My new strength.
My baby.
So today my baby have reached 34 weeks.
Every second of the kicking left me speechless.
I will meet my baby real soon.
Can I say that...I can't wait?
I can't wait right now.
What nervous?
I don't know what nervous is.
What I know right now is I just can't wait to see my baby. means happiness to me.
Masa cepatlah berlalu.


+Lie truth.

A truth is like a surgery. It hurts but cures.
A lie is like a pain killer. It gives instant relief but has side effect forever.

Monday, May 29, 2017

+Ramadan Kareem.

This year Ramadan will be the next treasure and something new for myself.
Fasting with my baby.
I wish everyone happy fasting and may the crescent-shaped moon brighten our path toward enlightenment and may Allah bless us with peace and grace.

This girl oso have to fast.

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

+The green carpet.

So yesterday...we came back home from work like usual.
After a long day at work...we wanted to enter our home peacefully and happily.
But unfortunately that day, we have greeted by the stench of a strong cat shit and make us bleeding inside.
Awww, snap! The green carpet!

Tot sleepover at our home last night and I forgot to roll up our green carpet that morning before leaving to work.
Jane was pooping again at the green carpet!
That green carpet is Jane's favorite place to poop!
I don't know why Jane likes so hella much with that green carpet.
Maybe it looks like a grass field.
We cannot leave a house with that green carpet on the floor.
We think that we don't need that green carpet anymore.
So...bye bye green carpet.

Jane and her green carpet. Duh!

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

+Are you okay if..

Someone have been asking me that question.
Little that the person knows, that question was like a hard stone to me.
And I rushed myself to text Aiman with just simple text like...
Sayang, buat apa tuu..? 
I need Aiman to calm me down if I have faced that kind of situation.
Usually, it works.
But right until now...I can't unfeel the feeling after the question hit me.

Monday, May 22, 2017

+Eight months.

I meant, everything does not matter anymore when your significant others always there for you in whatever situations and whenever you need them.

32 weeks of pregnancy.
Braxton hicks already become my daily morning and night routine.
My belly boldly shows off herself and she was like squealing to all people around and says...
hey, look at me...I am 8 months of pregnant.
And people around me be more extra care and love me.
I even get help down from the stairs.
Bestnya jadi orang mengandung ni..

Aiman and I, we are so nervous actually.
The time is around the corner.
We hope that everything is going well.
Ya Allah.
Ease everything ya Allah.

Thursday, May 18, 2017


Everything doesn't make sense anymore when your life is complete.
I am so happy now and so tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow.
Allah is the best planner after all.

Good things absolutely take time.

Monday, May 15, 2017

+A Question.

So yesterday I've met my Panda, Wani.
And Wani was asking me why lately my blog like so sedih?
Is it?
Is it too obvious?

Firstly, I just write what I feel at the moment in here without thinking about who will be going to read it.
Fact, it just Wani pun yang selalu baca.
Secondly, if I feel uneasy or whatsoever and post it here, surely it is not about my marriage.
Please don't think that way to whom that may read my blog.
Aiman and I are all okay InshaaAllah and Alhamdulillah.
Fact, if I got problem pun with my husband, I'm not going to spread it out here.
I'm not that crazy yet.

So..please don't make me upset and angry.
You wouldn't like me when I'm upset or angry.
Or you will see in here that I probably write about you.

Except for my loved ones.
You are always be forgiven.
Because love makes me that way.

Thursday, May 11, 2017


To love someone is nothing, 
to be loved by someone is something, 
but to be loved by the one you love is everything.

Monday, May 08, 2017


It's 29 weeks already with my baby in my womb.
I become nervous day by day.
There's nothing I can say than thanks a lot to Aiman for helping me going through the extraness days.

My last weekend is not like my usual weekend.
There's something intrudes my mind and somehow..I cried in my prayer.
I hope it will not affect my baby and hopefully, everything is all okay.

Friday, May 05, 2017


Some people enjoy making other people cry.

Wednesday, May 03, 2017

+Sleep outside.

Almost every day now since Jane peed on our bed, she has to sleep outside.
She wasn't allowed now to sleep with us.
She even cannot hang out in our room like she used to do.
So she will lay in front of our bedroom's door making cute faces just in case it would change our mind.
So cute.
My heart is so broken whenever I open the door and look at her face.
Sorry to my dear Jane.
But for now, she needs to stay outside.
Sad truth, besides the pee accident, my health were not really good now to tag with her.
Sob sob.
I always thinking what if she knows that I will let Tot take care of her during my confinement....

But looking at her, I think that she really needs a new friend.
How monotonous her life is to stay alone for years with me.
I hope that she can get along with Bong and the rest of the gang then.
And also....I hope that Aiman and Moms allow me to pet Jane back after I have finished my confinement day.

Friday, April 28, 2017


There is a coldhearted person I've met irl.
Even until now, this person keeps bugging my life with unnecessary actions.
I feel like I want to scream out loud at this person's face and says...
Stop bugging my life.
How jahat you can be?
Did you think other people's feeling before you doing all that?

Hmm. I hate this kind of feeling.
I don't want to hate anybody but seems like I have to hate this person.
Like really hate you know.
All these negative vibes will affect my baby's growth.

Why laaa...

+Hari ini dalam sejarah.

Awal pagi lagi Jane dah buat hal.
These few days Jane was in the mating mood.
So she will keep on meowing to express her feeling and stop only when she feels tired, but then she will continue to meowing as loud as she can and wake our neighbours up for Fajr.
But this morning she becomes extra.
She peed on our bed!
Wadehel Jane????
It was 5 am and not even azan yet but I have to clean the mess.
I locked her at the kitchen balcony, of course with her meals.
Kesian, but I have to.
At least she got the fresh air and bila dia termenung kat balcony tu dia boleh mengenang apa yang dia buat pagi tadi tu is absolutely wrong.
Hahaha. Delusional Umi Sue.

Alahai Jane Jane.

Thursday, April 27, 2017


28 weeks and we just discovered our baby's gender.
Awh I am so happy and totally can't wait for the pop day.
Terharu..keluaq ayaq mata everytime we screening the baby.
Like I still can't believe that there is a baby in my belly.
I could see and feel the heartbeats, how it kicking my belly and all that.
May Allah bless you, baby.
I'm waiting for you.